Well here it is, December 20. 40 years ago today I walked across my frozen lawn not knowing they would be last steps I would ever take. For some reason, this anniversary feels more significant than the others. Perhaps it’s because of my age and how my body seems to be growing more weak.
Last night someone asked me what today would be like for me. I said it would probably be a combination of grief, sadness, gratitude and joy. Well, not grief today just great sadness. Not only sadness for what I’ve lost, but sadness that my history is so long in my future is so short. I’ve been near tears several times today. And every time I look out the window I feel so grateful for what I am able to see. I smile when I see a bird land on my birdfeeder today.
Today I feel such tenderhearted love for everything around me. And for all of you who have commented on my writing, my radio show in my life, I feel deep gratitude. I am grateful to you for enhancing the meaning and quality of my life.
With gratitude and love